10 Years in 7 Minutes

Entrancing video of the world’s 2nd largest aquarium tank

I recommend thin in HD mode and full screen.

Kuroshio Sea - 2nd largest aquarium tank in the world - (song is Please don't go by Barcelona) from Jon Rawlinson on Vimeo.

Alltop Widget

You can deploy an Alltop widget on your site or blog. They provide widgets for every topic. All you need to do is select the topic, configure the widget, copy a snippet of HTML code, and place the code on your site or blog. I chose "diabetes".

Joey's Mum Sierra Comes to Visit

Joey was delighted that her Mum came for a visit today. We do our best to play with her, but she really loves a good game of "Chase". Joey is in the blue collar.

A Favorite Video

Sophie would only drink from the hose her last 2 months so we would often find ourselves outside seeking a beverage. Joey believes the hose is the source of "Bite the Water" game and if Sophie is impeding the stream, well it's only more fun for me.

Oh Sweet Sophie

It is with deep sadness that I have to write we had to put Sophie to sleep this afternoon. She actually had a pretty good day. She had a nice walk this morning, rested in the front window with the fan gently blowing her fur and a big lunch. We were thrilled she ate so voraciously. She was waking up from a nap when she had what we are calling a seizure. She was unable to get herself up from her side and when we got her standing she would fall to the floor if I didn't catch her. Whatever it was that she was fighting, clearly found it's way to her brain.

I plan to descend into the cavernous grief I am feeling for a few days. I will cry hard, sleep lots and pack away her things. I appreciate all the interest and support you all have shown towards Sophie all throughout her life. She was a great dog and friend.

Sophie Has Gained...

Three pounds since her low last Tuesday.

Excellent.

'nuff said.

No Can Do. I Have Plans

If you have been following the thread here you know that Sophie has lost a LOT of weight and she had stopped eating. For any animal this is a really bad sign, but for a lab - especially Sophie - there is nothing worse.

So after a very long, very teary discussion Friday night, Roy and I decided that Saturday we would take Sophie to the vet and put her down. The short story is that she can't live if she won't eat, and her trembling was more and more prominent indicating she was in a lot of pain. We decided that we would give her Tramadol for pain and Mirtazapine for her mood (antidepressant) and just keep her as comfortable as possible. Of course as soon as we decided this my brain went crazy looking for another way out. I hugged Sophie and cried into her fur and told her how amazing she is and how lucky I am. I told her I was trying to do the best thing for her and all her pain would stop soon.

Well, Sophie caught the entire conversation and her response to being put down? "No can do. I have plans."

Saturday, Sophie ate probably a 1/2 pound each of sliced turkey and sliced ham. She had at least 1.5 cups of kibble, some crackers, etc. I could go on, but the point is that Sophie has been eating and eating and eating for three days. Last night she ate 1/2 my dinner as well as hers. She is still inconsistent in her eating. There are still times where she completely refuses food - turns her head in disgust - and times where she refuses, but if you can somehow get her started she really gets started. She is swimming everyday, she is napping well and mostly sleeping through the night. The frantic pacing seems to be gone and she enjoys walking (very slowly) around the block. We have taken her with us to the park for a picnic and around town to do errands. She has been pleased to feel the wind in her face.

We are grateful to still have her. We don't know what any of this means or how long it will last or if it is too late anyway. But my world is a better place when Sophie shares it with me.

Lab Results "OK"

We just heard from the vet and the lab results were "OK". There were a few values that were elevated, but not alarmingly. Some could be explained by the amount of steroids she has been on, dehydration, etc. So that is good news. It means that her body is not shutting down.

And surprisingly her HCT, which is a value related to her anemia, is the highest (best) it has been in 2 years. Also, her slight incontinence (that she has been taking medication for since she was 3) has completely disappeared - and not due to dehydration, it's cured. Sophie is busy getting rid of her unnecessary ailments so she can focus on whatever this new one is.

We still don't know why she won't eat. She didn't want to eat this morning so I blended up some "Grammy's Pot Pie" and used the syringe to force it in. She really doesn't enjoy that - neither do I - but she is putting up with it.

The plan is to remove some of the meds from her plan and see if that helps her appetite. Maybe re-prescribe them at a more appropriate dose. Remember, when they prescribed the latest medications, Sophie weighed 53 pounds. Many meds have different doses for under 50 and over 50 pounds.

What do your dogs NEVER refuse to eat?

Forty Pounds? Seriously?

Yep, Sophie was 40 pounds today when we weighed her at the vet. Sophie who has weighed 52 pounds her entire life is 40 pounds. With all the ups and downs she has struggled through since her surgery to remove the fungus she has not eaten like her old self. We knew she was losing weight, I've said that she is skin and bones, but I didn't think we were at 40 pounds. I would have guessed 45ish. That is over 20% of her normal weight, lost. Do the math with your weight and think about what you would look like and how you would feel. Scary.

While at the vet, Sophie gave some blood. We will have the results back tomorrow. The big concern is that there are problems with her organs - one or many. We of course hope that is not the case. We are hoping for relatively normal labs, and that it's the medication she is on that is causing her not to eat.

Yes, that's right. Sophie is not eating. Today is day 2 of her refusing food. After dinner I blended up a 1/2 can of "Cowboy Cookout" and filled a syringe and forced it down her throat. Unpleasant for both of us, but she needs nourishment if she is going to survive and then thrive.

Come on Sophie!!

Sophie Turns 13!

Sophie had her 13th birthday today! It wasn't long ago that Roy and I were wondering if she would make it to see 13. She had a nice day. She went to the park for the first time in two months. She showed her friends at Boot Camp that she can walk around without any assistance. She enjoyed swiming - she was the strongest she has been in the water in a while. She went on errands with us. She was massaged, and stretched. But it was so cool that she stood herself up a bunch of times and walked around. She did several "victory laps" around the pool.

Go Sophie! Go!

Pretty Good Weekend

Last week was a tough one for Sophie. Starting last Sunday, she was unable to put her right rear leg down and subsequently she would hop on three legs rather than walk on four. When we did our PT on Thursday it was the worst it had been. She was barely able to do her ball exercises since she couldn't stand on both rear legs. The PT folks suggested ice, stretching and gentle massage.

We have been diligent about the stretching. Roy, really, has been diligent about the stretching. I'm on ice and on massage. Over the weekend we saw huge improvement in the leg and she has been walking on all fours for a few days now. She will still hop from time to time, but mostly she is walking (as newly defined by the new Sophie scale). Maybe about 65% of the time she can walk without any assistance. She is trying more and more to stand up on her own, but she still has trouble. We will find her in odd places so clearly she is able to stand and walk somewhat on her own, but she eventually falls. She also has trouble standing. She can get planted, but then her hind quarters starts to sway and she melts.

PT was good today. Massage, ice, laser, fitball, and (JOY!) underwater treadmill. below is the side view of her walk. You can see that it isn't great for a "normal" dog, but for Sophie this is a miracle. Also, she is wearing her walkabout harness which you will see me refer to (in other posts) as her "pants".



The fitball is used for Sophie to 1. practice balancing on her back legs (and even remembering she has back legs) and 2. strengthening her legs by standing on them and being rocked left and right, forward and back.


And Finally, a video from the front for comparison against last weeks video should you happen to be one of Sophie's vets. :)

Physical Therapy

Sophie has now had three PT sessions. Each session they do a little massage (more and more now that her right leg is so bad), the hit her with the laser therapy (in her leg), they do some balance work on the fitball, and sometimes they do abdominal work or other stretching. But the BEST part in Sophie's book is the underwater treadmill.

Don't Mess With Sophie...

Or you'll have ME to deal with.

~ Joey

Joey has always been noble when it comes to Sophie's welfare, but she has really taken it up a notch. She has stepped in at the dog park when she felt other dogs were not showing Sophie her due respect. Now that Sophie is "special needs" Joey has taken it upon herself to "just be nearby". She knows Sophie is not a snuggler, but she stays close by, just so Sophie knows she is loved, AND that someone else could watch the house if she wanted to take a nap.

I love these guys.

New Harness, New Hope

Sophie has had a rough few days. She has been holding her right rear leg up - way up - which means it is very painful for her. She still has been trying. Let her be a lesson to all of you. She has never stopped trying and trying hard. She holds her leg up high and hops out to the grass for potty breaks, holds the leg up to take care of business, and hops back into the back yard. If she is sick of lying around, she will hop a lap or two around the pool.

Sophie has started physical therapy. I threw my pride out the window and humiliated myself through pure begging to get her an assessment PT appointment on a day they don't normally offer them. We needed this appointment for Sophie to get started - otherwise she would have had to wait until the 14th for the assessment appointment then therapy would start after that. Sophie will do her third (including the assessment) PT session tomorrow. They consist of abdominal work, stretches, laser therapy, balance work and walking on the underwater treadmill (her favorite). She has been doing well.

So based on advice from the PT vet and her techs, we have purchased a "Walk About" harness to better support Sophie's hind end while she walks. We have been out twice with it and she already has tried to put her right leg down. Our hope are again high. We also have been icing her leg and I've been massaging the muscle spasms 'til they stop. We are also giving her pain medication so she can try to put her foot/leg down without pain. So far she is tolerating it well (you may recall a bad reaction to medication after her surgery).

Finally, just because I think this picture is SO CUTE, here is the swim therapy team:

More to Worry About

We brought Sophie to VSA in Campbell yesterday so she could be assessed for physical therapy. We even scheduled the appointment at a time that gave us the option to do a therapy session - we were hoping with the underwater treadmill.

The (new) vet did a physical and neurological assessment, reviewed all the chart notes and the x-ray. She said that she didn’t want to start therapy because her exam revealed that Sophie is experiencing pain in multiple spots in her body and wasn’t presenting as she would expect a spinal issue dog to present. She felt we would be better served figuring out what the issues were so that a more appropriate therapy could be prescribed – whether that be physical, acupuncture, medicinal, whatever. So we took some blood and joint fluid samples and more x-rays. All her vets will get the results and talk today before contacting us with information and a plan.

She has her good days and her bad ones. Saturday was awful - very painful for her, but Sunday was the best in a while. "Best" is a relative term. It means that she seemed to suffer only one short bought of bad pain, she ate half of what she would normally eat in a day and she squatted for potty breaks. She still has trouble standing herself up, once standing she would collapse if I didn't have her in a sling though she gets better and more aware of her feet once she is about 10 yards into walking.

We'll see what today brings.

The Back Legs Are Trying

Group Therapy

As usual, Sophie directs all of our activity. She was in the pool with me for her second therapy session (Roy does it in the morning) and Joey just could not stand it anymore. She had to join in.


We both think the swim therapy has helped not only with exercise and neruological issues, but also with emotional issues.


Sophie seems to be improving though at a glacial pace. She has been able to stand herself up a few times, but it isn't a regular occurance. She has the most trouble when she first stands. It takes her a few seconds to figure out her feet. But once she gets going she motors along pretty well - especially if she has a goal (swimming, drink from the hose, potty break).

A Bright Spot

Sophie just finished up with her morning swim therapy and is enjoying a nap outside.

Earlier she surprised us by getting herself out of her bed and walking over to the edge of the pool. I we had finished swimming with her and I put her in her outside hammock bed to rest and dry. I was throwing a stick in the water for Joey, but Joey didn't want to go in after it. I was being animated and trying to get Joey to jump when I looked back and Sophie was steaming towards me. I think if I didn't grab her she would have jumped in after the stick! That was the first time she got herself up!

Day By Day

We don't know what to do. Yesterday Sophie had a pretty good day all things considered. She still can't walk, she still suffers extreme pain at various points in the day, she still can't eat or drink out of a bowl.

So the fact that her excruciating pain lasted only for an hour and 15 horrible minutes was a good thing. The fact that she ate and ate without vomiting was pretty good. She actually ate quite a bit - we were thrilled. She did her swimming therapy and napped in the sun. And by this morning, you could tell she wanted to get up and head outside. But that's the thing - she can't get up. When I get her up, it takes her a few steps or seconds to understand where her feet are and what they are meant to do. Once we get going she can eventually walk on her own, but she can't stand on her own.

We are taking each day one at a time, moment by moment. We were given the OK to do swim therapy for 3 minutes, twice a day and we hope that will not only help physically, but emotionally. Sophie loves to swim.

Fused Disk

When we took Sophie in to have her stitches removed we also spent some time with the surgeon discussing the severe limp Sophie presented the day of surgery. We had some x-rays taken while she was under for her surgery so we had the opportunity to review them.

Sophie has two disks in her spine that have fused together. It is not that uncommon in an older, very athletic dog. We had already seen signs of it in that she had stopped holding her tail up high, had a slight arch in her back and showed some sporadic weakness in her rear legs. The vet said that since she responded so well while on Rimadyl, she felt that was the best coarse of action and did not recommend surgery - though it is a possibility.

Last Tuesday, Sophie couldn't walk. She completely lost the ability to use her hind legs. She could not stand herself up, she couldn't stay standing when we got her up and she couldn't walk. We got her to the vet who did a quick examination and felt that there was significant enough swelling around her fused disk to cause the symptoms we were witnessing. She recommended we treat Sophie aggressively with steroids before talking about MRIs and other options. Sophie stayed with them for two days.

She responded well to the steroids. The next day she was able to hobble around with the assistance of a sling. She was carried outside for bathroom breaks, but once outside she could walk a little. Thursday, she walked herself outside - still using a sling. We visited on Wednesday, hand fed her (she had not been eating) and told her how much we love her. We saw the vet a briefly and she reiterated that she was pleased with Sophie's response.

We were able to bring her home Thursday evening. We were given a new pile of medicines, a pamphlet for Scout's House and the OK for 3 minutes of therapeutic swimming a day.

She has not done as well at home as we would have liked. We hoped that she would continue to improve slowly each day, but she has taken a step backwards and has stayed there. Friday she slept all day and barely ate. Today she has had bad pain and has eaten less. She seems to enjoy her walks out to relieve herself and when we opened the pool she was very interested. As you can see, she paddled around - for ONLY 90 SECONDS (if our vet is watching in on us).

We will see what tomorrow will bring for our little Rock Star Sophie. We are hopeful it involves eating, walking and a wee bit of swimming.

No More, Please.

I have not written anything about Sophie for a few days, because not much has changed. She is eating, she wants desperately to be "cleared" for swimming in her pool, and she has less "goo" coming out of her nose. We'll call her "stable" as we head in to get her stitches taken out tomorrow morning.

So. Why relax?

We took the Labradors with us to run some errands today. We stopped for lunch (read:dogs got snacks) and on the way home we stopped at one of Sophie's favorite parks (all of them are her favorite parks). There was a friendly gang of dogs hanging out so we joined in. Joey was quick to find the 1.5 year old who also likes to play chase. Joy! Lucky! They romped around for a good 15 minutes, then it was time to go. We leashed up and headed for the car - Joey leading the charge. Then she stops short and starts to furiously shake her left front paw and she won't walk on it.

I get down and start to search through her toes and pads and fur for what I expect to be a burr, or splinter of some kind. I search and search but I find nothing. No burr, no glass, no blood, nothing. She is still shaking and shaking her paw. We carry her to the car so I can look at her foot without the other dogs coming up to help. I still can't find anything, but now I see a little red spot.

Oh. Crap. Bee sting.

This bee had incredible accuracy. You know the 2nd to last scene in Star Wars (IV) where Luke has to fly along the surface of the Death Star and at the very last second use The Force to shoot 2 photon torpedoes into a 3 meter wide hole which will eventually destroy the Death Star (but not Darth Vader)? You know that scene? That is what this bee had to do to sting Joey's foot. This red mark was deep in between the "palm" pad and the toe pads. The Force is strong in that young padewan bee.

Off to the vet we go. Poor Joey. She hates the vet.

She was a brave little soldier. The vet AND a tech searched her paw and squeezed it and shot her up with benedryl. She got a cookie for her goodness. She didn't feel that was adequate. She is sleeping happily now.

Good Weekend for Sophie

Sophie is improving everyday. The further we get from her wailing and panting the better - and the more we think it was the medication. He appetite is probably 70% back to normal. She shows a lot of interest in food (and she is getting anything she wants) but will only eat "so much" of any one food. Where she used to eat 1 cup of kibble, now she will eat 1/2, then asks to be hand fed, then loses interest with 15 kibbles to go. She has been really good about taking her remaining medicines (thyroid, anti-inflammatory, antibiotic) too.

She has shown more and more interest in her pre-surgical routine. We took her to the park twice yesterday and twice today. She enjoys the trip and carrying around her pink squeaky ball. She's not doing much more than that (which is fine with me).

She still is producing a good amount of mucous that comes out her nose. I'm hoping that is all normal healing stuff, but don't you worry - I'll ask. She is due to get her stitches out on Thursday.

Chicken for breakfast? Why Not?

Sophie is home from rehab. She spent a few days with the vet being observed, going to group, having one on one time with the doctor (to share feelings) and going cold turkey. She’s home now, starting to eat more and eat more regularly. She is resting, finally. It’s nice to have her back!

Last night we saw her appetite coming back, but this morning it has returned almost completely. She is still fussy (she never was before) but she is eating more at a time. We are up to half a cup of kibble and this morning she ate half a cup of baked chicken. She would have had more but I ran out. The next breast is thawing.

Baah One, Baah Two, Baah Three

Sophie is home. She ate a few cookies, walked around the house and put herself in the second bedroom. She counted a few sheep and that was it.

Zzzzzzzzzz. 'Nuff said.

Well Rested

Heard from the vet earlier this morning that Sophie has been resting well with them. She still has not eaten much, though she is showing interest. They are going to take some blood today, run a CBC and also test her cortico steroid level. They want to rule out the possibility that she is not producing it on her own. She has been on prednisone, a steroid, in a low dose for a year which is why it might be possible her system stopped making it - or is starting to stop.

They are going to keep her today, we will get her at 4:30 unless we hear otherwise. I'm going to spend the day turning the house into a zen sanctuary, removing all stimulus from her home environment. There will be nothing but dim lights, soft music and scented candles - chicken pot pie scented candles. :)

Heard from the Vet

I just heard from the vet. Sophie has been sleeping for the past 6 hours. I asked if they put her on a new medication of did she just give up.

"We think she just gave up." It was about time! Poor thing was exhausted. The doctor said not to bother her since she is resting comfortably, and breathing regularly. They put some food in with her but she was just too tired to deal with it.

They will keep her overnight and call us in the morning with a status report. Hopefully if she has any more strange behavior to get out of her system she will do it there, for them.

Sophie is Back at the Vet

Sophie didn't sleep at all last night. The magic we hoped for Xanax to bring her only lasted about an hour. She panted all night and paced in the small bathroom we had her confined to. I stayed with her and tried to calm her, but she has something else going on. She was trembling (which often means pain) off and on and had a little trouble breathing through her "blow hole".

The vet called this morning to ask how everything was going and got a story she didn't expect. She said to bring her in and she would have the surgeon look at her and get some other opinions from her colleagues. We discussed all the options for poor Sophie Ann Marie Mary Louise Theresa Christine, new pain meds, different sedative, etc. I was willing to try anything, but I was quite nervous about putting her on yet another medication, taking her home and having yet another symptom or behavior pop up. The vet offered to keep her over night, maybe two, to try to get her in a better place. As much as I miss her right now, I'm glad she is with her medical team. They can run an IV and give her fluids and nourishment as she still have eaten next to nothing.

I am very grateful for Joey.

Trip to the Vet

Veterinary Medical Specialist opens their doors at 8am for emergency drop offs and is open for business at 8:30. Roy had the phone dialing at 7:59am. We were getting an appointment for Sophie to see her vet. Today.

We had a bit of a trying morning just because Sophie is on the move. I want to say she is agitated, which she is, but I think she is also just Sophie and she is aggravated about all this sitting around. It is not a coincidence that it is the pool she continues to circle around. She could just as easily go out to the grass on the side yard.

It should be mentioned here that Sophie has been in the habit of walking in VMS and immediately demanding a cookie from Geoff who is usually at the desk there. Today was the same. He smiled and gave her a cookie, which she ate, and in unison Roy and I said "She hasn't eaten in 5 days Geoff, don't stop feeding her."

We told her story to the vet and said "Fix her" and "Help us" and "Feed her". They are all so nice there. They took Sophie in the back, the cooked up some chicken for her they looked at her stitches, they cleaned her wounds. They noticed that when they tried to feed her she would take the food, chew it and spit it out and concluded that part of the problem may be that her throat was irritated from the anti fungal medication. They mixed up a concoction of a pepto bismol-like medicine and dash of lidocaine to coat and soothe her throat. She ate a little after that, not much really.

We talked with them about the screaming and wailing, stating we really didn't want to give her those meds anymore. We were told yesterday that benedryl was an option, but I know from experience that it does nothing for or to Sophie. But today we were sent home with the magic pill: Xanax. Sophie is on a very low dose and it seems to be just what she needed. She is in and out of naps, but mostly just hanging out on her bed.

Quick funny story... You can imagine Roy and I talking with (well at, really) the vet this morning. We are talking over one another and shouting out every minute detail (because it might be important), correcting one another and completing each other's sentences. I look like the mother of a new born (no sleep) and Roy is detailed in his account of how upsetting it was to watch Sophie screaming, wailing and pacing. So the vet reveals Xanax is the plan - we have a thousand questions - she tells us to break the pills in 1/2 and start with that dose. We can always up the dose to a full pill if we need to, blah, blah. Then she looks Roy square in the face and says, "And if it doesn't work for her, you can take it."

Crying Over Kibble

Take yesterday's To Do list and apply it to this morning. Though this morning she shoved the kennel (we use it to barricade her in our bathroom) out of her way to get outside for the bathroom break. She is very, very thirsty and is taking us out frequently to see what's happening with the hose.

But now we can add to the list medication and kibble. When we first had her out this morning and she was drinking from the hose we were able to get most of her medications down between drinks. She was gracious and took a nap after her exercise so that I could take Joey up to Pulgas Ridge Park for some off leash romping.

When we returned Sophie was starting to get agitated again. She had walked Roy around the yard several times, hose break each lap. She would lie down, but only for minutes at the most. I walked her around for a while and asked Roy to bring out her water bowl and kibble bowl. She showed some interest in her bowl, then we heard "crunch". Roy and I looked at each other, "Did you hear that?" Then another "crunch". I started crying.

The routine became: walk around the pool, stop at the hose, stop for 5 kibbles, walk around the pool, hose, kibble. She took a 10 minute nap, but now she is on the move again.

Agitation

Sophie began to get agitated again late this morning. Thankfully she did not start to wail, but she wouldn't stay still. She was very determined that she wanted to walk around outside.

We took her out, around the pool (I actually think she wants the pool to be opened so she can swim), stopped at the hose for a drink then out to the side yard. She stopped by the hose out there too and slowly put herself down. She rested in the shade for 45 minutes or so with Roy out there reading a magazine. I ran up to borrow a x-pen so we can fence Sophie off. I was only gone 30 minutes or so, but that was enough for Roy to call and say "get back, she won't relax".

On advice from the vet, we gave her another half sedative and I sat with her until she dosed off. She is resting now.

This is not easy.

The "To Do" List

We have always said that Sophie is the smartest one in the house. She proved this to be correct again.

This morning, after a good nights sleep, Sophie walked us outside. Bathroom break: check.

Then she walked us over to the hose and wouldn't move until we turned it on for her to drink. Water: check.

Then she walked us around the front yard, into the back yard and around the pool, twice. Exercise: check.

Then inside for a nap.

Sophie is a total champ and is, and will always be, my hero.

Now if I can just get food and meds on that list...

Signs of Life

After last nights hours of wailing and screaming, we were actually pretty delighted that this morning Sophie was sleeping really hard. Her eyes were rolled up in her head, she was snoring and she seemed in a relatively comfortable position. We tiptoed around the house trying not to wake her for fear the wailing would start up again.

We checked on her periodically, but she was really zonked. We finally drew the line at 10 am. That was the time we would roust her, make her walk around give her more medicine, water, food, whatever we could get her to take. At 10 am she was still zonked. We looked at each other, worried, but thinking it's good that she is resting. And she is in her kennel so she is safe.

Another hour goes by, and another. Roy draws another line in the sand: 2pm. If she isn't starting to wake up by then, we are calling the vet. 2pm came and still no effort by Sophie to lift her head. By now Roy and I have worked ourselves into a pretty good panic. Is she in a coma? She hasn't had anything to eat or drink since she got home, is she dehydrated? To what degree is her AIHA involved? Her inner eyelid was up and covering her eyes, was she going blind? Does she have neurological damage?

We call and leave a message with the on call vet at VSA. Yesterday, our messages got us a call back within 15 to 20 minutes, but this afternoon it took a good hour. You know us, we put that hour to good use. We revved up our panic. We practiced lifting the kennel. We measured the kennel, measured the back of my car. Measured everything again. Called my dad - he came over (THANK YOU!!!). Packed up Sophie's meds in a bag. Packed a dinner for Joey. And otherwise prepared to take Sophie to the ER. My dad was great. He checked her out and explained what concerned him and what didn't. What pain medicines can do and how long they can stay in the system. He checked her eyes and thought they were reacting OK. He generally helped us gain some control of ourselves and the situation.

When the doctor called, he and Roy spoke for a while. He had Roy do a skin test to see if Sophie was dehydrated - she wasn't. If you know Roy you know that he asked lots of good questions and restated the answers to be sure he understood. We learned a lot (again - this vet is fabulous) and when we hung up we felt pretty certain that Sophie was either extremely exhausted, heavily medicated due to the patch on her ankle (oh yes, the patch, we forgot about that) or both. We were told to force her to get out of her kennel and walk even if only for a few steps.

That's what we did. We got her up and helped her hobble across the room to a throw we had waiting for her. She has been on that blanket for the past few hours. She has started to open her eyes a little be more. When they are open, she seems to follow our actions around the room. She has adjusted herself a few times and just a few minutes ago she stood up and headed for the back door - she wanted a bathroom break.

She is again resting on the blanket. She still has had nothing to eat or drink nor has she had any of her meds. We will reassess in the morning.

This is hard

I only do well with my own pain. When Roy had his kidney stones it was so hard to watch him experience those waves of pain. He at least could talk to me; tell me that a wave was coming, and leaving and when it was time to tackle a nurse for more morphine.

Sophie can't do that. She can't say "Hey, the pain meds seem to be wearing off, let's load up another one." All Sophie can do is scream when it hurts and I don't handle that well. She is panting and whining, wailing and screaming. Picture a polar bear calling her cubs that are a half mile away. That's wailing. And I'm not allowed to give her the pain medicine in any less than 8 hour intervals.

Last night was rough. Sophie wailed, and screamed until at least 11pm. We called the vet (again) to ask what we can do for her. He said definitely no more pain meds 'til morning and it was possible she was simply over medicated and that was causing the wailing. He said to put her in her kennel, cover the kennel with a blanket and ignore her. WAY easier said than done, but we did it. It took a few hours and a few visits from us to say "It's OK" but she finally was able to sleep.

Sophie is still sleeping this morning. I can't really give a report on how she is, since she hasn't done anything but rest. Rest is good.

Sophie is home

Sophie is home! We were able to pick her up Saturday morning first thing. The nurse carefully explained to us all that she had been through, what meds she is on will be on and when to stop what. I took lots of notes.

They seemed pleased with how she is recovering from the surgery. She clotted well on her own so she did not need a blood transfusion. She is still producing material that she is blowing out her nose. That will diminish as she heals, but I don't think it will ever completely go away.

You can click the picture above to see that her head is shaved from above her "eyebrows" down to her nose. She has a line of stitches that goes from between her eyes down her snout to her nose. She has two holes in her forehead. Those used to have the tubes that were used to administer the anti fungal medicine. She came home in an Elizabethan collar and a sling to assist her rear half with walking. We are supposed to keep her in a small room with walking only allowed for bathroom breaks for two weeks. Our vets have said several times in different ways that THEY MEAN IT. Sophie's got a reputation. So do we.

We got her home, let her walk in the yard for 5 minutes for some relief and then straight to bed. We have her in our rumpus room with the windows slid open so she can enjoy the breeze from outside. She has repositioned herself a few times, but is now resting and watching our every move. I am sitting on the floor next to her and will be for the next few days.

Joey was delighted to see Sophie. She wiggled and waggled around, but knew immediately that Sophie needed her space. She is very interested in what Sophie is up to, but she is also being respectful.

Sophie is "Hanging Out"

We got a call this morning from the vet's nurse updating us on Sophie. She did fine overnight and is still resting this morning. She is on lots of pain killers and is probably a bit loopy. She will be taken for a walk around noon and her anti fungal treatment is still planned for this afternoon. We will know later today if she is coming home or will spend another night.

But right now, she's just "hanging out" in her kennel (which is a good thing - better than panting or whining).

Props should also be given to the littlest labrador. Joey has stepped up her game in the past few days. She has decided Frisbee is pretty darn fun - so is chasing down the flat soccer ball. And she snuggles in extra tight when mom buries her head in the pillows.

Surgery is Done

We just heard from the veterinary surgeon and Sophie did well. They cleared both nasal passages of all the fungus (I'll spare you the details of THAT - ever see the movie "Face Off"?). Thankfully, the CT scan was accurate and the fungus had not reached the brain. The fungus is apparently a lot like bread mold, ew. She also put in the tubes that, tomorrow, will be used to fill the nasal passages with anti-fungal medicine.

She is in the process of waking up and getting her wits about her. She is not completely out of the woods yet, there is still a chance that she will need a blood transfusion and with her AIHA (anemia) this is extremely dangerous and potentially life threatening. Cross your fingers that this afternoon's lab tests show she doesn't need a transfusion.

If all goes well, we can bring her home as early as tomorrow. She will have a shaved face with stitches from between her eyes down to her nose and a BIG collar to prevent her from rubbing her face. She is looking at a two week recovery with the collar then we'll see what's next.

We had the surgeon assess the severe limp and take x-rays too. We don't know anything for absolute certain, but it appears to be "lower back pain" - who among us doesn't have that? We will try to treat that with anti inflammatory medicines while focusing on recovering from today's surgery. We might have to revisit that issue later.

So. In short, Sophie is not completely in the clear, but she is doing as well as can be expected right now.

Whew.

Surgery on Thursday

We spoke to Sophie's vet late this afternoon about her test results. She confirmed that Sophie's fungus is Sinonasal aspergillosis not disseminated aspergillosis. That's the first bit of good news as the disseminated aspergillosis is much farther reaching and has poor treatment outcomes.

As stated before she recommends surgery for Sophie's condition and I'm trying not to flip out over the fact that she "insisted" that we do it Thursday if we feel that is our best course of action. The implied urgency is what is upsetting to me. However it is understandable when the doctor explains that this fungus has already invaded Sophie's septum and it is important that it not be allowed to reach the brain. The CT scan did not indicate the brain had been invaded. That's the second piece of good news.

We have an appointment to meet with the surgeon Thursday morning and presumably we will leave Sophie for surgery and at least one overnight stay (if we don't leave Sophie it is because we decided not to go ahead with surgery). What we know right now is that they will saw open her skull to literally scoop out the fungus and apply medication. At that time they will also insert two tubes in her head that will be used to administer more medication. The surgery is delicate and intensive and will take several hours. Sophie will stay over at least one night, and perhaps a second one depending on her experience after the procedure.

One reason they will keep Sophie is that it is common for air to leak through the fracture in her skull which causes her head to fill with air - not dangerous, but upsetting to see. Once home we will have to watch her carefully for the first week for the possibility that another anti fungal treatment is needed. Fingers crossed, after two weeks will be back to the Sophie that existed before the fungal infestation. That sentence right there is the entire reason we will go through with this.

Although we are hopeful, optimistic and full of questions for the surgeon we are both very nervous. We had the same high hopes when we took Sammy in for her surgery years ago and that ended in great sorrow.

There's a Fungus Among Us

All things considered, Sophie is OK.

Sophie has been having a nasal discharge for a while. It was clear when it started (meaning likely an allergy), but recently it has become green, brown and red and smelly. Her breath as been really bad too. When we took her into see her specialist for her anemia we reported this (which we had before) and we all agreed it was time to put her under, do a CT (to check for tooth/root problems) and do a scope of her nasal passages too if the CT suggested it was a good idea.

So Sophie got scanned and scoped (and her teeth cleaned and toenails clipped). It appears she has a fungus growing in her nasal passages (aspergillosis) all the way up to her frontal lobe. Apparently we all encounter fungi in our environment everyday, but her compromised immune system (due to her AIHA) couldn't fight it off. She will likely need surgery next week to fully remove the fungus as it is too high up to be treated any other way. The surgery will mean opening up her skull to completely extract the fungus and medicating the area. I'm not liking the idea of that at all, but if we don't treat her, the fungus could eat her brain.

Right now she is groggy, and bleeding a little from her nasal biopsy. But her attitude is good, she is eating and she is drinking. So all things considered she is OK. The hardest part is her rear left leg got hurt somewhere in the process of the scans and scopes so she as been walking on only three legs. Her scans and samples have been sent out to be read and tested. We should know more Tuesday or Wednesday (holiday weekend).

I, on the other hand, am a mess. I think I will go completely grey this weekend.

Susan Boyle Rocks

I can't get enough of stories like this one. 47 Year old Susan Boyle wows the judges with her performance in the auditions for Britains Got Talent, singing I Dreamed a Dream from Les Miserables.

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he'll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms
We cannot weather...

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

Arthritis Foundation Walk - May 30, 2009

If there is one thing I am truly horrible at, it is asking for money. It makes me uncomfortable, especially during these trying economic times. I just don't like the pressure it puts on a conversation or the awkward silence that follows the question: "Would you be interested in donating to the Arthritis Foundation?"

Crickets.

But I have to do something. I have already joined team Bad to the Bone led by my friend Autumn who also just happens to be the Chairperson for the Arthritis Foundation Walk in San Francisco on May 30, 2009 and that's a good start. But it is a fund raiser, and I have to make some effort, no matter how painful to my inner introvert.

I've logged on through my team's donation page and set up a donation page of my own. We are hoping to raise $10,000 by race day. I have raised $50 which is the exact amount of my donation (you see how very bad I am at this?), but I wouldn't ask you to do anything I wouldn't do. It is very easy to donate online using a credit card, but if you prefer, you can download a donation form and send in a check. Anyone, anywhere can log on to this page and make a donation.

We also would love to welcome you as a team member if you want to participate in the event. You can join here. It's really going to be a fun time, Eye on the Bay television show's Liam Mayclem will be the emcee. The walk is dog friendly so consider bringing Mr. Fluffy Monster out too.

And now the official words:
Money raised through the Arthritis Walk will help fund the mission of the Arthritis Foundation, which is to improve lives through leadership in the prevention, control and cure of arthritis and related diseases. A substantial portion of the funds you help us raise go directly toward research to prevent and find a cure for arthritis. The funds you raise also help people who struggle with arthritis to make their lives the best they can be.

• More than 46 million Americans or one in five adults plus nearly 300,000 children have some form of doctor diagnosed arthritis.
  
• Arthritis is one of the most prevalent chronichealth problems and the most common cause of disability.
• Arthritis limits everyday activities such as walking, dressing and bathing for millions of Americans.
  
• Arthritis results in 39 million physician visits and more than a half million hospitalizations.
  
• Arthritis costs the U.S. economy nearly$128 billion annually.
  
• Arthritis affects people in all age groups including nearly 300,000 children.
  
• Baby boomers are now at prime risk. More than half those affected by arthritis are under age 65.
  
• Arthritis refers to more than 100 different diseases that affect areas in or around joints.
  

Please consider donating. I promise I won't hold it against you if you don't wish to or just can't. But if you can donate something, even a small amount, I will consider you a much better friend than those who can not.

Oh come on. I was kidding about that last part.

Stand By Me

Here's another song from Playing for Change, the project that joins various musicians from around the world. The musicians are filmed singing the same song, but each sing in the country where they live. The parts are then combined into a whole with the footage of the musicians woven together. The intention of the project, as we've posted before, is to inspire people to make the world a better place by building music schools around the world with an aim for peace-building.

Creature Comforts - Art